Good Adieu Onetime Friend: Driblet Dead Of An Insulin See

Goodbye one-time friend - And give thank yous you! 

On Saturday, Dec 29th at 7pm, during the appetizers together with right earlier the principal course, my insulin heart (which was no longer nether warranty,) died. 

Granted, I knew this 24-hour interval would come, together with similar ostrich who sticks its caput inwards the sand instead of confronting the inevitable, it was a reality I never wanted to intend about  - specially since I was forced to alter insurance companies a few years dorsum together with direct maintain been dealing alongside THIS insurance mess since August. 

As much every bit I wanted a novel insulin pump, the reckon of jumping through hoops alongside my insurance society inwards society to teach i was something I simply didn’t desire to bargain with. 

This wasn't the insurance I had when I got the heart - And I knew that getting a novel heart approved would require mountains of paperwork together with months of logged blood sugars. 

So I set it on the dorsum burner refused to intend well-nigh it - Until My friend Michelle had a Girls Night dinner on the final Sat of 2012.

My minimed 512 had been practiced together with trusted friend together with teammate who had been alongside me through breakups, moves, weddings, deaths together with everything inwards between.

Cut to final Sat nighttime inwards Michelle’s kitchen together with me noshing on some cheese together with crackers and  taking i glorious gulp of the super-delicious limey cosmopolitan that had simply been handed to me. 

Michelle was fifteen minutes from putting lasagna on the tabular array thus I decided to pre-bolus. 

I’d taken my blood carbohydrate earlier I left the trace of piece of work solid (I was 141) together with had already bolused for the cheese together with crackers together with had simply upwards my basal charge per unit of measurement temporarily.  I guesstimated the carbs for a  real minor slice of lasagna (45 grams,) together with was bolusing for it, except the carb release passed 45 together with simply kept going together with going together with going similar the numbers on a halt watch. 

And thus the the words “Button Error” flashed upwards on the hide together with wouldn’t leave.

By that fourth dimension I had already unplugged & googled “Button Error,” on Michelle’s computer. 

I tried resetting the heart alongside no luck. I took the battery out together with that set it dorsum inwards a few minutes afterwards - together with it was even thus stuck. And would rest that agency for some other three hours.

My insulin heart was pretty much toast . My heart had served me good to the real destination together with had completed the circle of it's insulin pump’s life. 

I couldn’t cry, because I needed to notice a 24 hr chemist's because the three close me were unopen thank yous to Sandy. Also, I’d thrown out my emergency Lantus my Endo inwards the summertime right after Hurricane Sandy. Once I institute a 24 hr CVS  -10 miles away. I called my Dr’s piece of work together with the MD on telephone telephone called inwards my RX, together with thus called me right dorsum together with together figured out the amount of Lantus I needed to take. 

I hadn’t taken Lantus inwards over 10 years thus I had no reckon how much to accept together with an hr afterwards I was at the 24-Hour CVS picking  upwards my society of Lantus pens, which terms me $116.50 bucks!  Did I advert my insurance sucks?

  

Somewhere inwards betwixt all of the above, I’d updated my pump’s decease on my FaceBook condition together with was overwhelmed past times the answer of loner pumps from the Diabetes On-Line Community - YOU GUYS ARE AMAZING, GENEROUS, AND I DON’T KNOW WHAT I’D DO WITH OUT YOU!

SO. I spent a calendar week shooting upwards Lantus nightly together with brusque acting insulin whenever I ate or needed a blood carbohydrate correction - And I was i time once to a greater extent than reminded that I wasn’t a fan of multiple daily injections! 
The Lantus did it's job, but I was injecting brusque acting insulin a lot - Sometimes vii times a 24-hour interval - And my breadbasket was diverse shades of royal from all the bruising. 
I missed my temporary basal charge per unit of measurement something awful, specially since I’ve been fighting a nasty mutual depression temperature together with coughing all week!

I missed figuring out my carbs/ amount of insulin to encompass said carbs inwards nether two seconds flat. 

And I missed the accuracy that an insulin heart gives the someone wearing it. 

But non having anything attached to me body?? I gotta hold upwards honest, that share wasn't bad.  

Still, it was thus weird non wearing my insulin pump!  It was similar my heart was a phantom limb  and piece I wasn’t wearing it on my person, I would constantly make for it on my hip whenever I took my blood carbohydrate out of shear habit... And security. 

And that start nighttime on Lantus piece I was getting create to teach to bed together with going over the events of the eventide piece changing, I all of a abrupt reckon midway through taking off my jeans: Ohmygodmyinfusionsitesgoingtoripout  & at i time lost my remainder together with vicious onto my bed alongside i leg even thus inwards my jeans!

YEP, I did that. Still - Even alongside my lack of physical grace - together with I’m getting real personal hither - That final Sat nighttime of 2012 was the start nighttime I'd slept inwards my birthday suit inwards over 10 years! 

But birthday adjust or not, I'm getting a novel insulin heart because shots aren’t for me, together with the past times 10 days has reminded me of that fact. 

So, where create I teach from here? Lucky for me I direct maintain a span loner pumps, giving me the fourth dimension to figure out the clusterF*c$ that is my insurance. 

I desire to accept this fourth dimension to non entirely figure out my insurance, but to question what’s out in that place re: pumps -  together with the loners are giving me the chance to create both!  

So rest tuned together with I’ll travel along yous guys posted!