Letting Become & Leaving Room For Hope

Where at that spot is no struggle, at that spot is no strength

Oprah

I learned that courage was non the absence of fear, but the triumph over it.

The brave human being is non he who does non experience afraid, but he who conquers that fear. 

Nelson Mandela

Life ain't a runway meet..... It's a marathon.

Ice Cube

Some of us intend asset on makes us strong; but sometimes it is letting go.

Hermann Hesse

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Tomorrow (Wednesday) morning time is my Eye examine in addition to I’m trying to remain calm & allow buy the farm of my fears  

I’m trying to breathe in addition to acquire on alongside my twenty-four lx minutes menstruum - Trying to complete my function therefore I tin strength out buy the farm out inwards the beautiful sunshine in addition to play!

Trying my best to live on all buy the farm alongside the flow, spell doing what needs to live on done inwards this affair called life. 

And I’m doing quite good inwards accomplishing all of the above. 

But I know that when I wake upward tomorrow morning time I volition live on on pins in addition to needles in addition to that the fright I allow buy the farm of today, volition reappear tomorrow.  

And I volition makes excuses in addition to abide by myself running belatedly to acquire to said middle twenty-four lx minutes menstruum of the month - And volition most probable locomote into 10 minutes belatedly in addition to filled alongside apologies - Because the really idea of getting my eyes dilated in addition to prodded in addition to having blinding brilliant lights glaring on in addition to inwards them, makes me desire to remain inwards bed spell simultaneously wishing it was already Wed nighttime instead of Tuesday afternoon, allow lonely Wed morning. 

And I know that the receptionist volition smiling at me in addition to nation me it’s OK - And hearing her nation that volition brand me intend that everything volition live on OK -  And the reappeared fright volition subside for a bit, until I abide by myself sitting inwards the black examine room - in addition to therefore the nerves in addition to the fright volition outset all over again. 

And there’s a expert adventure that I’ll fifty-fifty tweet most how I'm feeling. 

Then my doctor volition come upward inwards in addition to milk shiver my manus in addition to inquire me how I’ve been.

And the n the pocket-size verbalize in addition to the examine volition get - And all the spell my doctor volition nation me that I’m doing smashing spell talking to his assistant inwards a linguistic communication I don’t understand. 

And I volition silently nation fiddling prayers in addition to remind myself that I am mother’s fille & that I come upward from brave in addition to tough stock. And I volition nation myself that my hopes are stronger than my fears  - And that letting buy the farm of my fears volition acquire out to a greater extent than room for my hopes to buy the farm reality. 

And I volition promise that things buy the farm well, simply similar final visit. 

But if that’s non the representative - I volition all the same live on OK. 

And on the drive domicile I'll belike  think most taking upward yoga again, in addition to nation myself that I quest to live on to a greater extent than zen. 

And I volition buy the farm along to function on letting buy the farm of all the things inwards my life, ( diabetes in addition to otherwise) that don't acquire out room for hope.