Of Spacey Lows, Shiny Marble Floors, Comfort From A Md Friend & Capturing The Lonely Depression Inwards A Snapshot
I referenced this experience yesterday inwards my vlog post over at: accu-chekdiabeteslink (dot) com. Anyway, here's the elongated version.
It was 3pm inwards the afternoon as well as I'd merely had a quick java coming together amongst some folks as well as was dashing towards the Grand Hall to hear a verbalize as well as and therefore it hitting me. My lips went depression as well as my natural language felt numb as well as I felt similar someone had kicked the shit out of me. I'd been running on the depression side for well-nigh all of #ADA2012 and I hadn't bolused for a repast all day. I sat downward at 1 of the many empty tables as well as tested. I was 48 as well as chop-chop grabbed a granola bar from my handbag piece simultaneously wishing I'd had a juicebox or five on my mortal .
And as well as therefore I waited. I was past times myself as well as fifty-fifty though I was at an resultant as well as sitting inwards the Grand Hall surrounded past times diabetes clinicians, nobody around me realized I was having a low. And I establish myself snapping the inwards a higher house motion painting inwards my depression blood saccharide haze amongst my iPad to capture the irony of beingness depression at a Diabetes Conference.
I larn a piffling spacey when I'm depression as well as I establish myself focusing on the shiny marble floors as well as the Sun streaming inwards from the windows as well as how it made both the marble floors as well as walls glisten.
I kept thinking how shiny the marble floors as well as walls looked as well as how difficult it must live to continue them that agency as well as how I belike would live running depression all the fourth dimension if I was the mortal responsible for cleaning them - And I was glad that I wasn't that person.
No, I was the mortal inwards the Shiny Marble Grand Hall who couldn't larn her blood saccharide upward where it needed to be!!
The tables inwards the Grand Hall were well-nigh empty because every 1 was either inwards a coming together or a session. And as well as therefore I was like: Why the hell aren't at that spot whatever Low Stations similar at other diabetes events??? Because there's non to many patients able to, that's why!
And my withdraw heed kept going dorsum to the session I'd been at a hateful solar daytime before regarding the shut loop as well as the artificial pancreas. I intend the speaker had been from Medtronic but I couldn't retrieve because my encephalon wasn't performance at that moment.
Anyway, the speaker said (and I'm paraphrasing here) That it makes absolutely no feel to continue pumping insulin into a torso all black via the insulin pump, when that torso was going low!
And of course of education I agreed whole heartedly amongst that statement, 1000% inwards fact.
And every bit I sat at that spot inwards the Grand Hall, I kept repeating that phrase inwards my caput piece simultaneously thinking: This makes no feel that I receive got no glucose suspend selection except for turning off suspending insulin delivery on my own.
And I kept thinking how bully it would live to a cgm/insulin pump that would receive got done suspended insulin delivery good before hand, as well as inwards essence would receive got prevented this withdraw heed blowing depression I was currently experiencing. For Christ sakes I was blowing a 48!!! And It never should receive got gotten to that!!
Then I checked my blood saccharide again, it was 64 as well as I popped opened upward some other granola bar as well as ate half, then called Bennet. I wanted to select grip of upward amongst him as well as on a purely selfish level, I knew that hearing his vocalization would brand me experience better.
So I called him as well as without actually realizing it ( though I intend he totally did because I'd told him that I was coming off a low,) he calmed me down.
"Make certain y'all continue eating long acting carbs this evening before bed, because I don't desire y'all to larn low," he said.
Me: Thanks, I will!
Bennett: I promise y'all don't intend I'm crossing some form of line, it's merely having ii kids amongst diabetes, makes me similar this.
Me: No, I totally appreciate it. I lady friend having parental units hovering over me. But I'm fine - my bg directly had directly creeped upward to 72 - give or receive got the 10 to twenty % margin of fault inwards either administration as well as nosotros kept chatting.
Then nosotros lastly said goodbye as well as LY/MI. But I didn't larn upward from the table. I was tired as well as I couldn't believe I was exclusively 72. And as well as therefore I looked at the clock on my iPad as well as couldn't believe that well-nigh an hr had passed. Spacey lows as well as shiny marble floors had sucked me into some diabetes fourth dimension as well as infinite continuum as well as I'd missed the session I'd been on my agency to attend.
But sometimes shit happens, as well as spacey lows as well as shiny marble floors receive got precedence. As does talking on the telephone amongst your friend who non exclusively gets diabetes, but has lived it.
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| Photo I snapped piece having a depression inwards the Grand Hall Photo courtesy of my ipad |
And as well as therefore I waited. I was past times myself as well as fifty-fifty though I was at an resultant as well as sitting inwards the Grand Hall surrounded past times diabetes clinicians, nobody around me realized I was having a low. And I establish myself snapping the inwards a higher house motion painting inwards my depression blood saccharide haze amongst my iPad to capture the irony of beingness depression at a Diabetes Conference.
I larn a piffling spacey when I'm depression as well as I establish myself focusing on the shiny marble floors as well as the Sun streaming inwards from the windows as well as how it made both the marble floors as well as walls glisten.
I kept thinking how shiny the marble floors as well as walls looked as well as how difficult it must live to continue them that agency as well as how I belike would live running depression all the fourth dimension if I was the mortal responsible for cleaning them - And I was glad that I wasn't that person.
No, I was the mortal inwards the Shiny Marble Grand Hall who couldn't larn her blood saccharide upward where it needed to be!!
The tables inwards the Grand Hall were well-nigh empty because every 1 was either inwards a coming together or a session. And as well as therefore I was like: Why the hell aren't at that spot whatever Low Stations similar at other diabetes events??? Because there's non to many patients able to, that's why!
And my withdraw heed kept going dorsum to the session I'd been at a hateful solar daytime before regarding the shut loop as well as the artificial pancreas. I intend the speaker had been from Medtronic but I couldn't retrieve because my encephalon wasn't performance at that moment.
Anyway, the speaker said (and I'm paraphrasing here) That it makes absolutely no feel to continue pumping insulin into a torso all black via the insulin pump, when that torso was going low!
And of course of education I agreed whole heartedly amongst that statement, 1000% inwards fact.
And every bit I sat at that spot inwards the Grand Hall, I kept repeating that phrase inwards my caput piece simultaneously thinking: This makes no feel that I receive got no glucose suspend selection except for turning off suspending insulin delivery on my own.
And I kept thinking how bully it would live to a cgm/insulin pump that would receive got done suspended insulin delivery good before hand, as well as inwards essence would receive got prevented this withdraw heed blowing depression I was currently experiencing. For Christ sakes I was blowing a 48!!! And It never should receive got gotten to that!!
Then I checked my blood saccharide again, it was 64 as well as I popped opened upward some other granola bar as well as ate half, then called Bennet. I wanted to select grip of upward amongst him as well as on a purely selfish level, I knew that hearing his vocalization would brand me experience better.
So I called him as well as without actually realizing it ( though I intend he totally did because I'd told him that I was coming off a low,) he calmed me down.
"Make certain y'all continue eating long acting carbs this evening before bed, because I don't desire y'all to larn low," he said.
Me: Thanks, I will!
Bennett: I promise y'all don't intend I'm crossing some form of line, it's merely having ii kids amongst diabetes, makes me similar this.
Me: No, I totally appreciate it. I lady friend having parental units hovering over me. But I'm fine - my bg directly had directly creeped upward to 72 - give or receive got the 10 to twenty % margin of fault inwards either administration as well as nosotros kept chatting.
Then nosotros lastly said goodbye as well as LY/MI. But I didn't larn upward from the table. I was tired as well as I couldn't believe I was exclusively 72. And as well as therefore I looked at the clock on my iPad as well as couldn't believe that well-nigh an hr had passed. Spacey lows as well as shiny marble floors had sucked me into some diabetes fourth dimension as well as infinite continuum as well as I'd missed the session I'd been on my agency to attend.
But sometimes shit happens, as well as spacey lows as well as shiny marble floors receive got precedence. As does talking on the telephone amongst your friend who non exclusively gets diabetes, but has lived it.
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