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Waiting Out A Depression Blood Saccharide & Recalling Three Out Of The Ix Circles Of Hell

Every directly in addition to thus weird shit pops into my mind. Whether it's a commercial jingle from agency dorsum when, an obscure film reference or facts I wasn't fifty-fifty aware I'd remembered until they popped dorsum into my head. 
During my depression blood carbohydrate final night, long agone facts from a college literature degree popped into this Litt major's caput in addition to made for or thus interesting diabetes analogies - And fifty-fifty though it makes for a foreign pairing at get-go glance- I intend it genuinely makes sense inward the end. 
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You know when your blood sugar's depression right earlier you lot start to brand dinner thus you lot potable or thus juice in addition to thus you lot elbow grease your best to "wait it out,"  because you lot don't desire to ruin your dinner?

But "waiting it out" doesn't run thus you lot swallow saltines alongside peanut butter & strawberry jam, because you lot live  past times yourself in addition to you're self sufficient  in addition to you lot desire to rest hold upward & this detail depression makes you lot experience vulnerable inward all all of the inward a higher house areas.

But fifty-fifty alongside waiting, your blood carbohydrate feels similar it's all the same inward the 3rd Circle of Hell, where according to Dante, the gluttons are punished past times lying inward a vile freezing slush in addition to are guarded past times a iii headed hound named Ceberus (think Fluffy from Harry Potter,) which makes sense because at this betoken I practise experience similar I’m beingness punished for my insatiable hunger - And I’m starting to interruption into a mutual coldness sweat. 
And thus I wonder out loud: Why the hell am I remembering Dante’s Circles of Hell at a fourth dimension similar this?  
Seriously, WTF?
Why does my encephalon shout upward such obscure facts at the weirdest in addition to most inopportune of times? I don’t larn it.
I don't know, possibly my encephalon pulls out long forgotten facts to receive got my heed off moments that are scary. 

I’ve left Hell's Third Circle in addition to or thus how I've made it to the 2 Circle of Hell, where the "lustful souls are tossed most inward a vehement tempest without whatsoever promise for rest." 

This genuinely makes sense because I experience battered in addition to similar this stormy depression is never ending.
I experience similar my blood carbohydrate volition never become upward in addition to shove to a greater extent than peanut butter in addition to jam covered saltines inward my rima oris because my lips are numb & I know that's non a skillful thing. 

Again - I elbow grease in addition to facial expression the depression out in addition to I sit down at my estimator in addition to type what’s happening in addition to what’s going through my caput in addition to for the life of my I can't believe that inward this depression blood carbohydrate haze I’m thinking most Dante’s Inferno  - I didn’t fifty-fifty larn an Influenza A virus subtype H5N1 inward that degree - I intend I got a B, in addition to honestly, I haven’t idea most that degree since I took it!
I all the same intend most my John Milton degree from fourth dimension to fourth dimension - But I did my Major Authors newspaper on Paradise Lost - And got a B inward that degree - And I shout upward beingness genuinely happy most that because if anyone had told me that I would pass an entire semester studying in addition to writing most John Milton and getting a B inward the degree I wouldn't receive got believed them.... But I digress. 

Which leads me to Limbo - Dante's First Circle of Hell - that's where I am right directly - In limbo - where Dante says the unbaptized & virtuous pagans live. 

And at this instant I genuinely tin relate to those virtuous pagans - I am 1 of them after all - Right directly I’m praying to the Diabetes Gods to convey my blood carbohydrate dorsum upward from the beneath surface thus I tin breath again. 

And directly I've come upward up for air... I experience ameliorate in addition to sick all rolled into one. 
My blood carbohydrate has gone upward fast, besides fast for comfort. It’s gone upward from 62 to ninety in addition to thus 25 minutes afterward ( in addition to an hr in addition to 10 minutes after the low) it’s directly 164.

I'm tired in addition to practise a correction bolus, my caput hurts in addition to my dinner plans of a roast beef sandwich on Esekiel bread alongside Pacific Hearty Tomato soup & in addition to broccoli sautéed inward olive stone oil in addition to garlic volition receive got to facial expression for another night. 

I receive got a headache in addition to my tummy is total in addition to I experience terrible. 
This depression has left me tired in addition to petty teary eyed in addition to I’m annoyed at my trunk inward all its dimensions. 

Next fourth dimension my blood carbohydrate drops I promise my encephalon recalls something to a greater extent than pleasant - Dante & his nine Circles of Hell are total downers - fifty-fifty if you're alone recalling the get-go 3.

So.... Any weird facts or memories float through your heed during a depression or high blood carbohydrate haze?  
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